Alhamdulillah, settle few steps forward. Back story, first time was during jpa procedure, thinking back and forth is its the right one. Now, its come again, but the questions really made me realized that actually im ready than I know. But theres still a lot of thing to be done.
For the chosen one, I dont expect more but only the best of you from Allah. Just be you, as you being alone. And what the most important is just doing everything because of Him not me.
As I said, I leave all the worrisome to Him. He knows the best, insyaAllah :)